I used to have a lot of that sort of trouble when I was younger. Up until I was 33 I always got crushes on "impossible" candidates, there was something blocking it every time.
What solved this for me was that I realized that I was scared silly of loosing my indepence, of having to compormise on my beloved habits and subject myself to accepting/dealing with someone elses habits/needs close up. So basically choosing impossible situations was my subconscious way of avoiding that scenario and still giving me access to the emotions of a crush.
Working throught those issues by making myself a solid list of criterions on what I did not want to compromise on, what kind of partner I could love and deal with and what kind of partner I wanted to be to someone, gave me a much clearer perspective on what to look for, and my fears dissolved as I wowed to myself that I would find a person that could deal with me as I am, give me the freedom and indepence I need and appreciate me as a partner the way I wanted to be as a partner and of course be attractive to me and attracted to me. Once I had that list, clarity on my wishes and requirements, the right guy turned up in my life just 3 weeks down the road... Now we have a 10 year history and are still happy with our choice of each other.
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