Hi Old Soul,
I would love to sit down with the lot of you and talk out this topic... In the past I've been in behavoral/cognitive therapy but am currently only on a pretty stout dose of prozac & trazodone. With that disclosure out of the way...
In my natural (unmedicated) state I am much more creative and spiritual; Strangers say I 'shine' and people find me eerily perceptive. While that is the upside, the downside is devastating/dark/isolating/hopeless moods that grip me and drag me down. Medication has indeed lopped off those "high notes" and "low notes" but I feel the trade-off for now is something I need to bear.
I do miss that magical spiritual world that enveloped me but I do not miss the black-funk that used to side-blind me and suck me dry for months at a time.
For now I'm compromising and taking the medications ("for now" meaning the past 8-10 years.) Behavorial and cognitive just wasn't enough... hopefully someday it will be. It's nice to fit in and function as I do now... but it's lonely too.
Interesting topic!
Swansong
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