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Originally Posted by Andrew Brunelle  I've never seen this thread before and I have to say that sometimes, especially in the past for over a year, I had this feeling. Or lack thereof. I felt nothing but pure emptiness. I don't know what caused it, but I eventually got over it somewhat. I still don't feel too many emotions. But I feel some and they feel good to me.
I don't think what you are experiencing is enlightenment, because enlightenment does come with the constant euphoria package I believe. But that's not from personal experience, just from what I've read. I'd say you've lost a part of yourself, and it is a pretty important part. Your emotions are very crucial to making any decisions. The empty feeling and apathy could very well be a different form of depression.
I would go to get some kind of psychoanalizing done. Some kind of mental health assessment. Something to bring light to what you are going through. Another opinion, and one of a professional. At least then you'll have some idea of what is going on. Otherwise, you're just kind of getting opinions of people who are not certified in any way to tell you what is wrong. They can try, and some of them may be right, but they are not trained to make any diagnosis. Get help...seriously. |
Hi there first off I want to touch on what you said about emptiness. Obviously I don't you or what you experience, or the feelings you experience but I find when most people talk about feeling "empty" they are refering to some sort of depression. I don't feel depressed I haven't for a longtime. I used to have depression often as a youth I even saw a psycholigist regularly at 13 and 14 years old. This is not depression, I don't feel "down", pessimistic, lonely etc what I am experiencing is more like nothingness, a constant (near constant) state of being neutral or indifferent.
By the way I may not explain myself very well in my posts but I do experience emotions including posititve ones however compared to before they're short lived and for whatever reason I no longer feel emotion or feelings through my thinking or thoughts anymore I can choose to have a thought or not to. For example the other night my brother came home late I was in bed but I came down to get something to drink and we were just talking and having a laugh and it felt good but 5 minutes later it's like it never happened, the same if I watch a favourite comedy I will laugher a lot sometimes to the point it hurts in sides because it's so funny. Actually the other day I felt annoyed and bit angry with someone in which we don't seem to get on with each other. Again though the feeling dissapeared some minutes later. Anyway I honestly don't think I am depressed I have a good idea what It used to feel like when I was in that place it's like unless something triggers emotion in me or a response to events outside of myself or certain stimuli I am in a state of constant inner peace and calm in my mind I guess you could say being neutral is a feeling and in a way it is. I could see a doctor it certainly wouldn't hurt but I doubt they'll find anything, I have looked into various abnormal states and mental disorders and I can't find anything I identify with or which could be related to what I am experiencing.
By the way I think it's a bit of a myth or misconception that those who are "enlightened" are constantly happy and full of joy. I could be wrong.
Cheers