I am 19, so yeah I'm not as wizened as the rest of these folks, but my story has some aspects you should be happy to hear. A little schaudenfreude (sp?) never hurt anyone (except me in this case, but whatever
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I'm not a virgin, and I've had relationships.
You're lucky.
My first sexual experience was the most painful sensory experience I can remember, and I unfortunately can remember it vividly.
My second sexual experience (and last as of the moment) was no better.
I've never actually finished, as you can imagine, so I prefer to continue to consider myself essentially a virgin.
My relationships are not the shining examples that people who know me usually expect.
One of my liaisons turned out to have killed her parents in cold blood four years prior.
Another of them had been manipulated into losing everything by a manipulative man, and as a result was afraid of me.
I'm only 19, and my peers are simply not very likely to be at my level of thought. It's depressing, since I still have the sex drive of a young man, despite the pain and suffering I've endured every time I've tried to satisfy it.
So basically, just think of yourself as fortunate, for having avoided the potentially negative relationships that often befall people who are just opening up their higher selves.
~ David