I know what I'd do without compulsive thinking. I'd go for full Buddha-hood baby. Awareness Watching Awareness - Practice Instructions
Really, it's like you've eliminated the main hurdle and are so close, but still don't identify with awareness-bliss-love. But I'm afraid to even suggest a practice if it might cause further problems, because I don't know your situation since you have a different psychology than most. I feel like you're in a unique position which could really work in your favor if you wanted enlightenment/bliss, but not without an element of risk since we can't be sure how it would work in your particular case.
I hope it all works out for the best. It's quite interesting to hear about from my end anyway and I appreciate you posting your experiences.