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Then what is the job of the ego?
A quick rading of the pages indexed for the trm "ego" in Power vs. Force didn't explain it to me quite well. I thought of the ego als the part that tries to seperate me from source for fear of losing my identity. But that doesn't even sound true to myself.
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There are many definitions of ego out there using different words. It is a concept that has a variety of interpretations. It is not my place to say what is the right or wrong interpretation. I am giving my interpretation to be clear on which context I am speaking from. If you use another interpretation than I do, the rest of what I say will not make sense. This stuff is really hard to describe with words, and at best I can only give a working model that is somewhere near the truth of it, and that can give you an analogy to start working from. If you on the other hand use my definition in the context of somebody else's explanations you may get confused again, as it may not fit that context. So don't take the following to literally, try to get the gist of the meaning in relation to your own issues.
To sum up first: the job of the ego the way I understand and define it is twofold:
1. To protect the integrity of that part of consciousness you are experiencing and its physcal vehicle.
2. To provide filters and tools for that part of consciousness you are experiencing and its physcal vehicle to be creative in a unique way complementary to all other "creative parts" of consciousness.
A very important job, don't you think? Ego has got a bad reputation because when it is not guided by spirit/higher consciousness it is capable of doing a very ♥♥♥♥♥♥ job according to other egos opinions
It is when you identify with it and not with spirit/consciousness the odds of it doing a ♥♥♥♥♥♥ job increases apparently. The reason for that is that when you identify with the ego you shut the flow of guidance from your higher consciousness out as being not you. It does not then get a voice into the discussion on what to do or how to interpret things. But the judgements on whether the job it is doing is ♥♥♥♥♥♥ or excellent are still pronounced mainly by other egos, so we cannot really be sure what's going on with it until we reach the level beyond the ego and make our own judgment from there. It's been reported from lots of people accessing those states that the judgements from higher levels of consciousness on the ego is not nearly as harsh as the judgements pronounced by unenlightened fellow egos. There is a saying from a spiritual order (The children of the Law of One") that goes: "Everybody wants to be the only selfish person in a group of unselfishly loving people." I think that pretty much characterises how a lot of people interact and the motivation behind the feedback one normally experiences in the levels of consciousness below 500 on Hawkins scale.
So when you are taking on your journey of a thousand miles to clear up the mess in your life, it is your ego that will provide the resources you need to do that. How it does that is what we really need to look at. If your relate that to the levels of consciousness you could say that the higher you calibrate, the better guidance your ego have in doing that job. But it is not until you pass 500 that your ego truly get good quality guidance, and it's not until you reach beyond 540 that the guidance will not put the ego's job down and try to make it feel ashamed and guilty about it's shortcomings. The lower you get on the scale of consciousness the more the ego is left to it's own devices. Below 200 it does not do it's job number 2, because the energy then is reversed and is no longer creative, but destructive. So if you put that to your other question about whether you can temporarily drop down and act from a lower level of consciousness even though your overall calibration is higher, the answer to that is yes. The key word to notice here though, is TEMPORARILY. Do not get too caught up in that, forgive yourself (your ego) and move on. The ego was doing the best it could while it did not have access to guidance. You may want to train your ego to be better at operating without guidance, but for doing that the levels of consciousness is no longer the best tool in your toolkit. The way to use the levels of consciousness is to look at what your average level of connection to guidance for the ego is. Your overall best access is for the time being reason. Reason does not have as much power to counter these temporary drops as love has. Normally those drops for most people happen when they meet with reversed energyfields (<200) in others. Reversed energy is contagious and you need the power from 500 and above to transmute them back to a positive charge, and normally the power of 540 at least to not be infected. So the advice would then be to avoid people and situations that carries negative fields while you are working at training your ego to use better strategies. Then you need to switch your toolkit and have a look at what is your best tools to train your ego from your current level of consciousness paralell to setting a goal at raising your level of consciousness in order to improve your access to high quality inner guidance.
The above applies to your question about whether you lack skills from some of the lower levels. I think it would be more productive to look at this from another angle: let us look at the resources the ego have and how you use those resources. Again I have to use an analogy to explain, so do not take it literally:
First imagine consciousness as an infite field/soup that is penetrating everything. This field/soup is creative and creates out of itself segments that are unique - still connected to everything else but at the same time having finite boundaries for the segment. The segments has the same properties as consciousness and are creative because they are fueled by consciousness, but they filter that consciousness in a unique way for each of them. The way the filter is set up is defining some finite limitations on what the segment will create, and when meeting with other segments the dynamic of two separate filters create a new unique creation with finite limitations. Imagine that you are one of those segments and you create a body for yourself. The segment can then be understood as being your soul/higher self. The body you create is like getting yourself a computer. You project part of your field down as hardware and then you need an operating system to make the body-computer work. The operating system would be my definition of your ego. It has the job to make sure your computer can be useful to you. Now you need programs to be able to do something with the computer. You need a program that makes your heart beat, your blood flowing, your lungs to breath etc. The programs for physical life are the first you install and when they are installed, your body is born. After birth there need to be more programs. Usually the first programs to go in are the ones for mastering moving the physcal body and the programs to elicit assistance from other segments with physical bodies to help keep the body-computer running until enough software is installed to be able to maintain full functioning independently. Now in the period of dependence on other segments with body computers, those other computers have software already installed that tells them how to operate in the physical world and cooperate with other computers. They will then feel the need to install those programs into your computer, and that is what parents and peer do as we grow up. Very often parents and peers will not be happy with the fact that "children-computers" lack a bunch of programs and because they are not aware that it's just software lacking, they will give feedback that implies the computer is broken just because it does not have the software for some action/behavior that they would like to see, or they get annoyed at the preinstalled survival software that is designed to elicit their assistance. Then they inadvertenly install a program that runs the message "if you have not installed all the programs I would like you to run, you are useless to me". That is the program that runs in all perfectionist and block them from progress. It has a submodule that tries to download every other software they see and think they need at the same time, and the operating system goes into overload. The system either crashes or starts to malfunction.
The above analogy is a off the top of my head analogy of what happens in a body-computer network with no operators present to tune the system. The operator in this analogy would be your spirit/higher self. In our world the operators are really trying to get through to help the operating system with what processes should run when, what software should be deinstalled, what software needs bugfixes and what new programs should be put in. But the OS has begun to think it is alive and acts as if it is the operator. The OS will install other software to try to fix the situation according to what seems to be the best software available on the market for such a job.
In the same analogy we can say that personal development material are more sophisticated programs written and shared out to help others tune their system. For a person running "Perfectionist 1.0" that tries to install them all at once in order to qualify for "Good enough and successful 5.0" the system will go into blue screen fairly quickly. This situation elicits the following common error messages before it crashes:
1. Alert - "motivation 2.0 not responding"
2. Alert - "self-discipline cannot access interupt 11 while motivation is using it"
3. Alert - virus found "Very.mad.employer.exe"
4. Alert - virus found "pissed.girlfriend.exe"
Again I have to continue in another post(drafted this offline in my mailprogram)