03-24-2011, 12:08 AM
Join Date: Jan 2007
Location: Where soul meets body.
Originally Posted by AdoptedOne
Hi again sorry to dig up this old topic but I think I may go crazy if I don't express my thoughts. (Perhaps I am a bit crazy) What I talked about before, 7 months or so ago and still I feel the same and sense this "blank" dullness of my mind. I have tried and continue to try different things like eat better, exercisng, lifting weights be more social etc. Still the same. The good news is that I have been able to somehwhat feel at times but it's still odd and I don't understand it. For example If I feel anxiety I will feel the nervous energy in my body or embarrasement yet there are still no thoughts in my mind. It seems now any feeling I experience is the result of external factors that are outside of myself (my mind). Does this make sense? The best way I can explain this is that any thoughts I have seem like they have no substance compared to before, my thoughts don't create feelings or emotions which is why I don't seem to be able to feel much emotions anymore. It like the affective energy through my thinking has died or something. I have looked into depression, chemical inbalances, mental disorders etc and I don't identitfy with most of the symptoms. Something is off I can't understand what honestly I haven't been able to feel much strong feelings or emotion for over a year now.
Perhaps I did meditation wrong or maybe I went to deep into it? Resulting in my mind becoming forever still?
Here is website with other members who claim they are going through the same thing and yes I am the poster "Calm" on the website. Is meditation about making your mind go blank? | Wildmind Buddhist Meditation
Are you still meditating?