[Summerbreeze]

Thank you Midnite!

Yeah, there are so many rumors about stonehenge, from being a builded chakra for earth to just being a calendar. My wishthinking is that it should represent the possibility of portals, not on the physical plane, but if you would visit it in Astral Projection. I really like the idea of portals. I think it has to do with the illusionary nature of our reality, that I often get symbols as things from videogames I played as a child, so my higher self manifests in an astral experience as a warp hole from "Bugs Bunny - Lost in time" (you can visit different timelines and do different quests, rejoin them and pick up items, that are still left to pick, you also can manifest a guide, I loved the guide!).
My guides used the metaphor of a ship sailing between islands and diving in into the next adventure, both fit together very well.

I have much activities outside from incarnating here, so I take this metaphysical background/momentum with me and it is hard not to stay ungrounded if I don't ground myself, I remember with 4 years downloading information/talking with my higher self, having astral experiences, remembering/dreaming other lifes and knowing on which planet I'm etc. (I also was a bit pissed finding out).

So I'm very close to the "gates" of this planet, so to speak, and Stonehenge is for me subjectively a symbol to a kind of gate.

And you are right, I'm questioning very often during the day what I'm doing, though this sounds more depressing as it is.

I suffer from a incurable, really heavy disease called "intrinsic curiosity" and that leads me to questioning and searching.
Sometimes I'm asking if this leads to anything, but on the other hand its incurable since ever. So It is a important message to know that searching is the right thing.

I like to integrate more of my higher self, beside the glimpses I enjoy from it and decided to go for channeling it, also to clear many things up. My contract is to connect&heal, maybe I can use that for fulfilling the contract, my guides said I should go for intuitive consultation, so I hope it gets me the support in these thing I lack from the environment. Studying management will probably not serve to make me happy alone.

According to the Akashic Records we are indeed on a home stretch.

I also get symbols, nice dreams etc. "to come home". I totally love it.

Thank you, it helped me to see it in a different light, I appreciate your input and the intuitive effort.
If you have a dream, i'd do the intuitive Sigmund Freud for you.

~sb