Pre-arranged marriages happen quite often in places such as India/Asia and some parts of the Middle East. It is generally considered quite outdated, but still does occur in present times. Some families consider it quite tactful in aligning their children with wealthy or other advantageous families. However the people being married are often quite frightened and anxious considering that this is a deal for 'life' (or at least a very long time).
This may represent an ordeal that has been forced on you, or out of your control.
Having dreams about weddings that go wrong is often a spotlight on your current negativity towards some aspects in life. Considering that so much was felt during your ordeal, there is quite a bit to try and glue together here.
Does your cousin actually feel this way in real life? I may not think so.
This could be a very good indicator about the way you feel you stand within the invisible hierarchy of your family. Unfortunately it's a natural tendency for humans to always size up not only their friends within social circles, but also family members as well. People want to intrinsically know where they stand, and often dictates the way they act around certain family members as well. (For example; John walks up to little Alex, knowing he is the little more nerdier type, and starts giving him tips on how to hit the gym more often and attract women).
You may possibly feel that your cousin (or other family members thereof) do not necessarily have some of the natural 'advantages' in life, that you could have just been born with. This could be anything from intellectual knowledge, success in certain areas of life, or even just sheer looks.
This may represent a fear that you do not like to adhere to the social norm.
This may suggest you place quite a value on your ability to criticize other people's weaknesses. This could also indicate that you strive for perfection, even in your potential partners.
This highly suggests that you do not trust your parents' judgement. More importantly you feel that your parents did not ever really get the know the "real" you. Don't get me wrong, you may very well have a strong connection with your family, but in the deep recesses of your mind, your subconscious has recognised the discrepancy between your parents' take on who you are, and who you actually are. Therefore their judgement on something like a life-long partner seems completely out of wack.
You were correct in thinking this wasn't the "real" you. This was in fact a negative version of yourself where everything seemed to be going wrong, including your looks.
You were somehow trying to justify your unthinkable marriage by the possibility of wealth.
This new era that I was talking about seems to be quite important in your life due to how heavy the dream has impacted your thoughts. The good thing is that you're not going to be forced into marrying some guy with a large nose (though... this particular feature isn't exactly seen as the worst feature by some particularly frisky women... LOL
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I do believe a marriage needs to occur, however not exactly the type of marriage you had to experience in your dream. The marriage I speak of relates to the union of your two halves; one half representing your negativity and the other half representing your positivity. You need to learn how to embrace both of these polar opposites in order to lead a more fulfilling life where you are no longer being weighed down by internal conflicts.
I believe you think that negativity is out of your control, or something forced upon you by others. This is an illusion of life. You have always had the power over choices in your life. Sometimes the most convenient way, may not necessarily be the most positive.
You seem to be quite critical of other people. When I sense this, I know that you are quite critical of yourself too. Striving for perfection is absolutely acceptable. People only get into hot water when they let it rule their lives and the decisions they make. There was no indicator whatsoever that you made any personal contact with your groom, before passing judgment that he was not suited to you. It was based on physical appearance alone. You may very well have such a strong analytical ability, that no communication was needed in order for you to judge him. I just ask that you please be careful. There exist some pretty defensive people out there who don't walk around displaying their real stuff until a deeper communication is felt.
Don't ever feel its necessary to anything serious you don't like doing, unless you feel it's the right thing to do within. You are not being forced to do anything, and your parents don't make your life decisions for you. You may have been dropped into a situation that some of your natural talents can not solve, but the belief that wealth will solve any problems at hand is not exactly the right trail of thought. I can tell you right now that happiness comes from feeling love.
You may have once listened to your parents decisions like the Gospel, but you are now noticing subtle differences in your thought patterns. It is very natural for this to happen, as it just means you are growing into a person who truly values their own ability to decide exactly what they like. It's a maturation process that few people ever feel strong enough to experience.
This new era must be one of positivity, meaning you have to resolve your internal conflicts before you can move on in your life. The onus of deciding to follow a conflict-free or conflict-ridden life is in your hands. Unlike your dream, this union of the soul or new era of positivity is completely and has always been in your control.
Midnite
-on the ball
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