I had a dream last night which kind of tortures me and I need your help.
I dreamt that my parents organised a wedding for me and that I was supposed to marry someone I did not know. In the dream, we were waiting for my groom. I was dressed in a wedding dress and was very unhappy. My cousin was jealous that it is me, not her, who was getting married. I was feeling that, even if I don't wan to get married, this is what normal people do and that I should do it. Whan my grrom came, I thought that he was ok, but that his nose was too big. I was upset with my parents' choice and with the fact that they seem to be unable to understand what kind of partner I need. I was looking in the mirror to put on some mascara and I saw in the mirror someone who was sad and ugly and not me.
While waiting for my groom, I saw my ex who was going to play golf and I felt sad that it was not him who was marrying me.
After a while, me and my husband were visiting his family who was very well of. I was telling myself "Look, his sister is doing so great, your husband must be great too."
Now, the reason why I feel troubled is that in my country seeing yourself as a bride means death. Also, I don't come from a country were parents arrange marriages.
Thank you for your help!