Originally Posted by Midnite
How is this girl affecting your life soo much?
More importantly why have you let her affect you even at all?
I think you feel that she was using you, in order to gain advantages over your artistic/poetic friend. Do not let her methods of sabotage be psychologically detrimental. Which relays back to my original prognosis that you may possibly be 'over-protecting' your friends.
Instead of waking up to the fact that she is nothing in your life, you are still adding details to the design of your perfect subconscious monster.
The examples I'd written down were to show that she's not the innocent-admirer victim you thought she was. She was a narcissist.
It was hard not getting affected by someone like that during high school. The situation was never resolved, she was never sorry and continued being envious particularly of my friend. When I was in college (during the times I heard her voice), I couldn't avoid running into her from time to time since we went to the same university. And she never changed, only got better - she still was fishing around for stuff about us, particularly my friend. My other friends, who regularly attend our high school reunions (I don't, but not because I want to avoid her), say she hasn't changed. Still fishing around.
After high school, I wasn't really thinking about her - to us, she was out of sight, out of mind. Which is why the voices and the dream disturbed me - why now? She's not a part of our lives anymore except as a past annoyance reappearing from time to time. Of course, a past annoyance I wanted to minimize exposure to (who wants to be pestered?), which is why, for example, I take a different route if I happened to see her.