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Originally Posted by Tobias Zimpel

I believe Steve's quite aware of that.

I think so too, it's a very hard topic to cover in a short article. I admire him for daring to take it on.

But as I am aware of them, it's my choice how (if at all) I react on them, right?

Yes.

Hm... there are situations where I clearly act on my emotions without being aware of them at all - until someone tells me so. But... no, n ot really.

That happens to most people below 600, do not worry about it. Self discovery may seem like a neverending story...

That sounds like the level where certain drugs can put you to temporarily. It sounds familiar to me (as does the level above 600) - like I can remember that I've been there, and not in another life or before this one! -, but I'd put my overall level below that, as you do, too.

David Hawkins have made a video on addiction and levels of consciousness where he sayes exactly that: drugs and alchohol removes your "clouds" and take you to 500. Ther reason you get addicted is that you then buy into a lie: that it is the drugs producing the state. Then you give your power away to the drug. The truth is that the drug temporarily gave you an experience of getting in touch with your true self by confusing disconnecting the mind and emotions so you could have a direct experience of what is beyound those. It is the lie that makes the drugs addictive, the truth will break the addiction and set you off looking for your true self without the drugs.

But how can it be that my life is such a mess then?

Just to sum this up: I'm financially challenged, have little or no self discipline, my health and fitness are simply below par, not to mention my eating habits, and although I know that I created or intended all that mess in some way, it simply overwhelms me to a degree that I don't even dare to move for most of the time. I'm only able to focus on a thought for longer than a second if there are very strong emotions (mostly "negative" ones) attached to it.

OK, the way I wriet about it puts me to Reason again

But I have the feeling that I've missed something on the lower levels, as I have to learn skills I should have learned before.

I think I'm overintellectualizing this, too. But I have the feeling that I have to embrace it before I can transcend it - so what...

Actually the 400-499 is the level that can be the hardest with emotional problems and can create the biggest messes. Reason without anchoring in ones emotional nature can lead you very much astray. Reason is linear, reality is not. Emotions are the sensory channels that gives you information about non-linear parts of reality and your preferences within your reality. It is sort of an alarm-system alerting you to what is going on in your mind and around you. It is meant to be a navigational system, but most people in the reason range are too disconnected from that concept. When reason takes control it will try to dismiss emotional information with logical linear rationalisations. Emotions that you try to dismiss will get stuck in your system. If you keep doing that for a while you get a faulty wiring of the alarm-system, it's almost like having a fire-alarm starting to buzz for all kinds of events that have nothing to do with fire. Basically your mess is a result of a conflict between reason and emotion, they are not working together to guide your life. The way to get around it is to stop trying to change the emotion when reason say you should, instead allow reason to rest for a while and ask the emotion what it is trying to tell you, then pay attention to what drifts into your mind. Then bring back reason and see if the "reason for the alarm" is a true fire or a faulty wiring. No matter if the emotion is due to faulty wiring or a true fire, show gratitud towards the emotion and aknowledge that the intention for it was good and trying to help you. Then it will normally let go, as it's purpose was only to inform your conscious mind of something. When you acknowledge that you got the message, the purpose for the emotion is gone, and it is easy to let it go. Then you can make a choice on how to act/react with much greater clarity. Your mind will love that, and the process will be easier for each time you do it.

I've got "Power vs. Force" and the german translation of "The Power of Now".

Am I right that "Ask and it is given" would also be a good reading, since Esther Hicks channels Abraham which/who sould be on a level above that.

Hawkins and Tolle is both my favourites. Ask and it is given may be a little more counterproductive. I think it leaves more room for confusion, and is not necessarily the best tool for trancending the level of reason. That's just my opinion. Based on my own experience it does not describe the universal law of how things manifest nearly good enough. Maybe you will see what I mean when you read Power vs. Force. The levels of consciousness have very much to do with the power to manifest reality. Above 560 even casual thoughts can manifest really quickly, below 200 nearly no thoughts manifest at all unless you act on it, just to give a hint. Ask and it is given I think produces the same confusion about labeling vibration with emotion-names and just get people in the 400 range more reason to supress and control emotions, which is why so many can't get it to work I think.

Although I'm not a christ, the Sermon on the Mount has a lt of meaning to me, too.

Well you seem to have had glimpses of where you are going, let those be your best guide on how to proceed. Compare advice and reading material on how much they resonate with those glimpses and you have a great tool for discernment on what you should listen to and what to reject.

Like what? I don't know if I understand the term "sensitivity beyond the 5 senses" the right way (english is not my mother tongue). Do you simply mean to develop my intuition? Or paranormal things? ESP? Channeling? Or all of that? Or something of that that I'm interested in? I'd very much appreciate some clarification on this point.

All of the things you mentioned. What I have been very satisfied with for my self is remote-viewing/remote influencing courses on audio that allows you to practice for reaching higher states of consiousness. There are lot of similar things out there, go for what you feel attracted to and that gives you a feeling of exitement. Luke-warm interest is rarely supportive to learning new skills... I mean something that lets you practice intense focus and stillness of the mind. That could also be martial arts, extreme sports, whatever gets you to be in the now without thought.

Not rating them on a scale I know is artificial to some degree is the easy part of it, I think. To accept them is a lot harder, as they tend to overwhelm me when they get too intense.

It is your minds resistance to them that makes them turn the volume up. Think of the alarm analogy. It is your body screaming for attention. Listen to the message and pay attention to your emotional side with a loving eye and it will only have to whisper to get through to you.

What would not acting on them look like? For example, when I feel anger, go out of the situation that caused the anger, and start beating a sandbag, would that be acting on anger? IMHO yes, but at least it doesn't harm anyone in my opinion, although it would be better if I could stay in the situation and simply let the anger pass away.

Anger usually carries the message that one of your boundaries have been violated. Passing that information on to your mind, your mind can have a look at which boundary and in what way. Then let your mind figure out how to deal with it. Try out different strategies and learn which work and which doesn't. The emotion is great as a messenger but very poor as a strategical decisionmaker. That is why mind and emotion needs to be friends and work together, yin and yang in balance, like I mentioned.

Sounds like vipassana (simply labeling all emotions that arise, but then letting them go) should be a goot thing for me.

Yes that is a very good practice. When doing that you will more and more develop the habit of seeing solutions instead of problems.

Best of luck. By the way, I have never met any spiritual teacher that treats the ego with as much love as David Hawkins, so tell your ego not to worry. It will not have to die, it will only get superb assistance in doing it's job and lots of loving understanding from Hawkins teachings. This whole process of spiritual development is about learning how fantastic you really are!