Originally Posted by Darky
I am not experiencing any desires. I am content all the time.. the only "desire" that i am hoping to is to get my inner connection back. Thats the only thing in my Mind everyday, every moment. Its not consciouslly, it more subconsciouslly.
I can totally be in the Present moment but there is always this background "reminder" that I am wounded from the inside.
Yes, I enjoy eating. But its totally diffrent that it was 1 year ago.
When you say content, do you mean you feel good? When I hear "content", I think of feeling relaxed, pleasant, free - like there are no problems in my life. Is that what you mean by content, here?
I had no experience of emotion all of my childhood, and I've broken out of it. I definitely experienced feeling "disconnected", and thinking there was something I needed to reconnect to.
What's different about eating? Do you eat less? I asked because I got to the point where eating was kind of annoyance, and not something I enjoyed. I would just not eat for days, because I didn't have any drive to eat. If you're experiencing hunger, I think that's at least one good sign.