Originally Posted by Darky
Its been for 9 months now. I feel nothing.
I dont have any emotions or anything similar to them.
I feel like I dont have my soul or my self any longer.
thinking about solving my problem and trying to breaking my own "cage" makes me "feel" totally irritating and hopeless, but its still far from emotion.
I simply dont remember this 9 months .. its like I havent really lived them.
and I also dont remember my past.
I can't think, i can't remember.. I try to feel but there is nothing to feel.
Nothing makes sense. I even hardly descriebe all this , since its not like I am I
So should I choose for some medicine **** like antidepressants ?
I know its chemichal ♥♥♥♥ but I heard that a lot of people could feel after taking them
Or should I just wait ? but I don't think that there is matter dark night of the soul of me, since I experienced trauma it is totally diffrent..
or perform shamanic healing instead ? but the problem is, there isnt any shamans in my country and im too young for traveling alone.
Iím not sure if I understand you right, but from what I read, you are now fully disconnected from the person you used to be 9 months ago, Iím not sure which trauma you have lived (experienced), but I assume something took place which literally blew out the flame in your heart.
So I guess now you are lacking spontaneity whilst amongst friends and loved ones, while you see everything around you like if you were watching a bad movie, since you donít really feel being a part of it all any longer.
Since you are considering to take medication I assume you are caught inside a depression too.
I can also figure out, you are not in denial of your actual state of being, which is very positive!
The fact you are very young is positive too, do know, nothing is lost!
The main reason why you are just sitting while meditating is probably
because you are lingering in a low vibration.
Do know, you are not dealing with a problem, rather a situation which you can and will overcome.
Shamans are cool but if they are not at hand, you will need to rely upon your own for the time being.
I ignore the nature of your trauma, have you ever considered to write down in detail what you have experienced?
In many cases this can cause/help the healing process to recover from it. It might be very painful having to go through your mind in order to recall all which has taken place, but it can possibly free you from which is affecting you.
If you would like to know how, I will be more than willing to help you around.
Hope this made some sense!