From my own experience being Light, I'm finding myself putting my best self forward to other people more than I ever have, but at the same time, I'm also simultaneously turning more inward and taking care of my own inner world. I'm having to do both at the same time, after many years of being in a relationship that demanded all of my time, money, and attention. I'm also having to cut cords and let go of people to whom I've been attached but who couldn't appreciate the value of the connection I felt toward them and would have wanted with them mutually.
I can totally relate to the thought of everyone else having wild fun and screwing like bunnies lately -- I've been partner-celibate since the last time I was with my now-ex in August. But I'm having fun in my own right, making meaningful connections and meeting new people while going through a discovery process of what I want in my own life and in my interpersonal relationships. I'm also learning to cook and I'm finding out that I can actually be pretty damn good at it!
So I'm shifting, changing, and evolving as well, and I can honestly say that, despite the challenges that I'm facing, it's been what could be my best year ever thus far.
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