| | My own experience
Well, this is fascinating, Chris.
I find that I have gone through the same 180 as others, but I'm moving in a different direction... perhaps because I work with energy differently (Darkworker, and work with energy from the root chakra up)? The people I'm thinking about here, are *all* Lightworkers.
What I see with other people is a *lot* of hypersocial behavior, spontaneity and social/sexual liberation. Particularly among people who were "highly sensitive people" previously, and who lacked confidence... and particularly among people who did not have these experiences when they were younger. I'm seeing a lot of people in the mindset of "okay, things are swirling like mad right now - let's not make any plans until this passes and energies settle out" and a lot of upheaval of relationships and careers.
I see a lot of people moving from Myers-Briggs "I" and "J" toward "E" and "P". There is a whole lot of impulsive energy in the air. People are questioning their identities like mad, too. This is neither a "bad" nor a "good" for the most part, and actually, in the case of these people... it's a "good".
This isn't me at all. In some ways, I'm doing practically the opposite... sinking roots instead of growing branches. I feel myself growing into a new phase of life. I'm growing more toward being Myers Briggs J, after a lifetime of being P and being very scattered/chaotic energy.
I'm more in a place of wanting to cultivate stability and peace and I find myself becoming more self-reliant. I'm the "anchor" for many people right now while their lives get upended by the storm. For the first time, many of my almost lifelong questions are resolved inside myself and I don't really feel I am searching for myself anymore. I feel I've solved the puzzle of my identity and am now in more of a position to help other people.
Instead of going "out of my house" all the time like I see my friends doing, I've been spending this time "taking care of my business"... learning time management, money management, et cetera... I have ADHD and this is the first time I've managed to be a decent housekeeper, manage my finances *and* be a straight-A full time student. My next task will be adding a job to the mix. I have a feeling of peace and joy in managing these tasks and I just don't feel the *need* to go out all the time.
I just don't feel as drawn to the new, novel experiences or hypersocializing that I see my friends doing. Maybe because I already had many of these experiences as a teenager. I've been pulling social experiences *to* me but they're only as much as I can and will handle at any particular moment; I've been staying very rooted in my center and my routines.
I'm even - for the very first time in my life - an early riser.
So it's interesting to see how we've all changed... I've done a 180 too, it's just in a totally different dimension.
It's very easy to compare myself to other people and go "wah, those other people are having more fun than I am!" (it seems like virtually everyone is dating like mad and screwing like bunnies, while I've pulled OFF the market and am working on making my life ready for a relationship) and then I realize that I'm actually having just as much fun. It's just different. I actually have peace for the first time in my life... ever. I'm the source of my own stability, and not looking for an anchor. I feel at cause for my own life. And that's enough.
Last edited by pyrogen; 02-28-2011 at 01:07 PM.