Hi Redzalez,
If money is a problem and you feel you really need a reading or spiritual guidance, there are some forums on the net where psychics (or those refining their skills) do readings for free. All they usually ask is for honest and constructive feedback. I'm not sure if I'm allowed to post links to other forums here, (so I won't
) but if you google "spiritual forums" you should come up with the most popular. You might have some requirements to meet like a certain number of posts before you can request a reading.
As a sometime Tarot reader myself, please understand that psychics and readers do not have all the answers, they are only human, and they can only tell you what is in your energy at the time of the reading. Try and keep your energy and vibrations as high as you can and keep a positive outlook. There are some great threads on this forum here, that can point you in the right direction, especially in the Intention Manifestation and this Psychic section.
best wishes,
xxmp