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Originally Posted by infinitethoughts  You notice you are this "space".......this "emptiness".
This vast (no bounds) emptiness is what you are 24/7, which fills itself anytime it wants to with realities. (thought) |
That, to me, is the "global awareness", which I conceive of as God, allowing His awareness to coalesce in my small corner of the universe. I do not disagree with the idea that you are speaking of, I just think that I am not all of it, I'm a part of it. I think I'm a part of it in the way that my finger is part of me, and yet my finger cannot claim to BE me. That does not, however, preclude me from focusing "my" awareness down to the level of my finger, however.
In a non-duality reality, which is what I think God experiences (though I don't think that term, experiences, really applies to God), everything is one, there is nothing that is not of one piece. That, however, is abstract to me... not understandable. The more I let go of the focus on "me", however, the more in tune with God's awareness I become, and the CLOSER to understanding I get. I think that if I were ever to TRULY understand it, I would cease to exist as I know existing, that I would simply be absorbed back into God, no longer aware of myself as separate. While, approaching this, and gaining some shadow of it as an experience is fantastic, as of right now, I'm not really interested in ceasing to exist, as I'm enjoying this experience, this life, this journey of growth. I may simply be growing back toward the awareness that I am a fragment of, but that does not bother me... while I am what I am, I will enjoy it.
You can say that I'm artificially limiting myself, but if I enjoy it, why not? If you play a game against someone who is not as good as you, don't you sometimes limit yourself by giving them an advantage? That very limit is what makes the game enjoyable... if you each merely played to the full limit of your ability, it would not be very entertaining, with the knowledge that the outcome was already determined. The same concept applies to my perception of reality. I do not believe I am God, but I do believe I am a part of Him (as is everyone else, so this doesn't make me think I'm better than anyone else... in fact, it's more likely to prevent such thoughts than cause them). I LIKE the experience of being part of Him, and don't, at the current moment, want to become less of a semi-separate fragment, and simply be absorbed back into the whole.