What a wonderful position to be in. I mean that with all seriousness because it's these kinds of incredibly tough situations that ultimately shape us into something extraordinary. You're very lucky to face such a situation in your 20s, although it may not seem so now.
I can't tell you the answer, but I can point out the real question you're asking, which may make it easier to decide what to do. Your real question is, "Who am I?" Consider each of your options, and for each one of them ask yourself, "Is this me?" Which of the possible paths before you best reflects the real you?
That's all you really need to decide. Which path is me? Many times the answer becomes clear when we look at it that way, but we resist and resist because we don't yet accept who we are. The external situation just is -- the struggle and suffering exist only in our minds. |