Originally Posted by Summerbreeze
my take on deja vu feeling in dreams toward unspecific/unknown things is, that it is most likely a broad metaphor for something we experience on a regularly basis.
The dream seems to indicate the following to me:
You are thinking what is a good influence for your children in their environment, you put more aspects in it than before, because of a changing world-view. You might use there some black/white viewing currently.
You might think that your current location might limit yourself in your development, you wonder how it would be to grew up differently.
You are angry at things that are outside your control and that there is nobody externally that looks for you or stimulates you to take decisions, it might seem natural as a way of giving and receiving, because you are giving with your children. It doesn't work like this all the time with giving, there are different types of giving out there.
Tell me if this makes any sense or if I'm projecting.
Thank you, Summerbreeze! Actually, the first two ring true with me quite well. I have been paying much more attention to what could influence my children; T.V. and people around us are the two in particular that have bothered me more than anything. I have always also had the question of what it would've been like to grow up differently with my parents together, going to the art school I was supposed to go to, and living in a more "worldy" town like the one we moved from. I am feeling a little resentful at times toward where I live and the restrictions here, not to mention some of the prejudice and hateful mindsets of a lot of people in our in area. For example, I still live in an area where we have KKK. This is very bothersome to me and is one of the few things that will actually create anger in me when forced to address it.
As for the third, yes I can see this as a possibility. I don't feel angry about this situation, but I've often wished I could find a group of friend in the FLESH (lol) that I feel I can open about my beliefs, learn with, and grow with as I feel I've found here on this forum. And the forum is wonderful, but it sure would be nice to have friends that I can actually spend time with one on one over brunch! lol.
You've given me much to think about and yet again helped me put aside the fear that surfaces when I wonder why the HECK I dream about things like cannibals or murderers. Thank you!!