I wonder... I don't think it's accurate to say what I've done before no longer works. It's more on the mark to say I'm expanding and building off of it. My intellect doesn't shut down when I rely on intuition, in fact it's supercharged; I'm still thinking through things but on a much higher level.
I also feel like I've willingly constrained myself. What I was doing would allow me to accomplish what I want. It wouldn't be efficient, it wouldn't be pretty, but it would get me there. However, I would grow very little were I to proceed, so on a deeply unconscious level I've decided to tie one hand behind my back and I'm not allowed to use it except when I've come into my own.
That, perhaps, is the most significant element in my mind-I am doing this to myself, for myself, for reasons I only partially comprehend.
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