Wow, ridiculous -- timely post for me, Chris. Many thanks. I am absolutely trapped in the thought loops now, and NOTHING seems to be working.
It's funny, because nothing traumatic has actually happened but it feels like I'm in trauma mode trying to make a decision/solve a problem. This decision has totally consumed me in an obsessive way for the past several days and nothing seems to be helping. I do have my moments of lucidity, where it feels like I can think clearly and rationally, and I realize how outrageous this all is, but then I just sink right back in.
Just when I'm feeling on top of my game, like I can do anything, I'm back to being a quivering mess in my room, sobbing and throwing punches at pillows out as some sort of forced catharsis to appease the gods.
I like your suggestions, though, doing different things to shake up the routine. I will keep that in mind. For now, include me in your thoughts/prayers, whatever you do. Much appreciated.