Originally Posted by smartile
You need to give yourself a jolt.
Just surviving is one thing... but about thriving?
You said, " I feel nothing."
If you want emotion, then you must be in motion. Remember that energy in motion is e-motion.
So here's the deal. Choose two of the biggest items you have been procrastinating with over the past 9 months. It could be your taxes, managing your money, asking someone out on a date, writing a love letter, it doesn't matter what the heck it is... take two of them and WRITE them down.
Then take one of those items and take ONE SMALL action towards it in the next 24 hours. I guaranteed you will alter your bio chemistry and GIVE yourself a jolt of energy. You will feel alive.
the biggest thing which I was procrastinating during this 9 months would probably were Being with my fammily.
I never wanted them to see what really lies behind me.
I lost all bonds to them. I don't remember almost nothing about them. Its like they are strangers to me. Whenever I am with them I no longer feel this connection to them. I can't think of any ideas about what to talk to them..
Other item would probably be being with my friends.
Its fammiliar as for my fammily.
I lost almost all memories about my friends, understandings of who they are, and how they are. Everything. I am totally unmoved by their presence. I feel nothing, I almost don't have idea about what to talk about.
Time to time I can remember some memory of a past, with a tiny piece of emotion. And It brings tears in my eyes. Altrough it doesn't move my hearth the tears came anyway.
so what should I do ? I simply don't find the solution.. how to heal those bonds and memories ?