About to move out of home and into college in a week. I am so excited, nervous and numb all at the same time. I keep trying to reassure myself it will all be okay.
I keep wanting to pacify my feelings with food but I am resisting. Not even resisting, just accepting. When I get anxious I want to put food in my mouth. It doesn't really mean anything other than that.
I have been opening up and allowing myself to think about relationships and having a boyfriend. A previously unallowable activity. Funnily enough it makes me try harder because i want to live in the moment not in my thoughts. So I am just watching them going by like playing cards, one by one. Its tempting to join them but Im accepting them instead.