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I'll try to explain how I experience it. It is different with different emotions. I'll give an example with fear: When I take in fear I get a physiological fear response as if the fear was my own. My heart races, knots build in my stomach, my muscles go jittery, I shiver, I get sweaty hands. When I speak, my voices changes and gets a strained undertone and it sounds scared. If I allow this emotion to produce it's thoughts, so to speak and I'm with the person that "owns" the fear, and I voice the thoughts to that person I get immediate rapport and responses like "yes that's what I think too" and when continuing conversation I often get the response "finally someone understands". When that rapport is established, I go into listening and interview mode, and get the affected person to tell me their stories. I just listen, and often then the whole range of stuck emotions that person has will wash through my system as I listen. I feel it very physically and strongly, and I pay attention to the kind of thoughts that the emotions produce in me. Then I use my knowledge to reframe the thoughts or understand how they produce ripples in the persons life in the form of generating reinforcing responses from others and the "reality matrix" or whatever I should call it. I'll put in comments of those perspectives in the dialog trying to put it in a language form that matches the thought patterns. When the person is starting to feel relief I feel it easing off in my physiology too, but I'm left with a very drained feeling, and I also feel weak, shaky and often get tissue pain.

From studying physiology I think what happens is that when I take these energies in my body produces the signal peptides that goes with the energy and my body is flushed with these chemicals. That is just what chemicals do, they respond to the energy blueprint and form themselves accordingly. Those peptides sets of physical reactions. The kind of energy I take in is producing destructive biological responses, and toxins are released into the bloodstream for being transported to liver/kidney/lungs to be cleaned out and released through either urin, faeces or respiratory mucous, or through sweat through the skin. This process creates physical symptoms that are painful to endure. I can stop this, but then the toxins get stuck in the cells, and are tucked away in fat-cells, and I gain weight even with a very strict diet. When I stop the clean out, I get stiff in my body, constipastion, gas, restricted breathing. It's less painful short term, but more destructive long-term, and when I release after having piled up toxins, it is very painful and especially my skin breaks out with acne and excema, and headaches/vertigo are terrible.

The pressure in the head that you mentioned, I get when resisting the process. Then I wont feel the emotions so strongly physiologically, and I loose clarity. If I accept taking it in and just move my awareness up into observer-mode and offer no resistance, I keep my clarity. What has started to trip me lately, is that parts of me are starting to resist accepting the pain of the process, and have started whining "when am I going to get to have some fun", and the resistance is producing anger at the thought of having to deal with the negative energies. That anger produces judgemental thoughts, and the process that I described that helps transmuting these energies relies on total unconditional love and acceptance of the people stuck in it, as well as of the negative energy itself. This resistance brakes my connection sort of, and then clarity is no longer available. In practice it feels like I'm losing awareness, and I've been wondering if it is because I have not been able to discharge the energy properly previously, and that I have run my body too hard with accumulating this, so the circuits are not functioning as they should. I'm not sure really, even though I gets lots of flashes of insight to help me, and have studied related topics basically all my life, there are still more questions than answers in my mind. The only thing I'm sure of is that there must be a better way for me to handle this, and I won't stop until I find it.