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Old 06-19-2007, 08:55 AM   #10 (permalink)
Nico Kempe
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Unconditional love. So you want to love her no matter what the conditions are.
The next question I think would then be: to what degree does love depend on conditions?
When you just know somebody for a few weeks, you haven't had 'many' conditions, nor time to build your love.

Unconditional love would mean you'd love here even if you have conflicts and things go wrong.
But maybe love, real love, is unconditional as it is already.
If you really love someone, that is a feeling you have, affection and caring regarding a certain person. If you really love someone, conditions shouldn't affect that love at all.

If conditions would affect love, it probably wouldn't really be love, but more something you just like very much.

Anyway, I'm pretty much in the same situation as you in the way of having found a love online and not having met physically yet.
We have had a silly argument ourselves in a way, which was rather awkward, but then I realized something, something important.

Steve once told me (and thousands of others..) about the egoic mind. It involved observing your ego, noticing it when the 'fear body' jumps into action. You don't need to judge it though, just observe, be aware.
I've applied this on several occasions and so I also did when we got into that awkward moment. I noticed I was getting a bit angry, frustrated.
That alone cooled me down a bit.
Then I found that I was feeling powerless about the situation, I couldn't really do anything about it.

Then the realisation set in. I realised that all those feelings were caused by fear. So I asked myself "why would I have fear?", and the answer is that I didn't want to lose her. You see, I got all those emotions because our relationship got threatened.
Realising that I must really love her then made me happy, it made me feel good.

So when you notice these situations, think about why you have them, it might just be that it's caused merely by a, probably non-existing, threat to your relationship, indicating even more the degree in which you love each-other. You might just turn anger into a great feeling of happiness and grow ever more close to each-other.
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