[{aspiring_to_clarity}]

Hey, Oceanman. I know that feeling is really sickening. I think you are making a good choice. Letting things settle without anger and keeping busy with other people/distractions seems like the best idea for now. If you leave things in her court and don't have any animosity, who knows what might happen down the road? Maybe she just needs to see how life is without you, the way you were unsure about the relationship. I am sure that year of confusion was hard on both of you. I know I would have a little trouble just going back to normal after all of that. So, good for you for taking care of yourself. Either you will both get on the same page at the same time, or you will move into the next chapter of your lives separately. Either way, I think you are doing pretty well. I wish you the best.