Well, a little time has passed and I've found it hard to strike a balance between fighting for her and looking out for myself. How do I fight for the woman I love when she's dating another guy? I feel like I've let her know precisely how I feel, that I love her very much and would love to share my life with her. My sense is that I've done all that I can do at this point and the ball is in her court. She is listed as one of my friends on 'FaceBook' and I've now decided I have to delete her from my list. I just can't bear to see anymore of her communications with this new guy. It just kills me. I will let her know that I don't harbour any animosity, I just don't want to be apprised of her interactions with New Guy.
As hard as this is for me to let go, I think it's the only way I can gain some kind of strength. In the meantime, I think I'll phone that really fun girl I've met recently to hang out with. I need a distraction right now. I just hope that maybe someday we'll both be ready for each other at the same time again.
