So just meditated for a bit, went to my sanctuary and found my path that leads me to my guide.
Last time I did this, a few months ago I met a tall guy named John. Didn’t say much that time and was quite blurry.
This time though, I saw an old Chinese man, got this name shoe or chu and asked where John was. And he said lets go, we veered off the path onto the grass and he told me to sit down. He sat down in front of me and said I need to do something. I wanted to say “what” but I was scarred/anxious so I just said “okay”. He quickly got up and scurried off saying I wasn’t ready. I jogged after him (he was fast) and he went up the path. I got a good feeling from him, he was definitely quirky in some respect.
I turned around thinking ‘what the’ and John was there. Much clearer than before, kind of middle aged but young looking. Strong character. I asked him who I saw and he said something. I thought ‘master’ but john said something else, can’t remember if he had said that or I did. Blurry
Anyway, John said I could ask him one question. So I thought of a few things and ended up with saying “Is the real”, he replied “Yes”
I asked if I could ask another one. He replied I got what I was after. He left down the other direction of the path saying I should meditate more.
So I did and I think I got my answer after a while: I have to have the experience of helping one person (that I don’t know) in the real world, like person to person. I get the sense it will lead to other things.
If I’m honest I’m still sceptical as it seemed was just thinking all of it and what they were saying (as if it was all in my head ) plus at times I was seeing it from a 3rd perspective. Thoughts about this? Is this my ego speaking?
I’ll keep meditating more nonetheless, and do what I was advised. maybe it's a test