The victim mentality is extremely hard to break. I grew up with it and still struggle with it. If you tell yourself that aren't a victim, that you can make something positive of the situation, or that you can't wallow in self-pity, your ego will torment you until you recant. I went through a lot of what you went through, except that people have generally been nice to me, so it was a little more obvious that I had problems.
I'm a little curious about exactly how bad this is. Is everyone mean to you? How are you with people? Some of those insults sound juvenile--insulting your physical features and/or ethnicity is the mark of a bully. But things like 'bad attitude' and '♥♥♥♥♥' concern me. I'm not calling you a ♥♥♥♥♥, and I probably wouldn't if I knew you, but how much have you considered the idea that you might be attracting some of this? The world is not a bully, it has bullies in it. It also has a lot of nice people, and you have to learn to look for them. Any chance some of their criticism is valid? Are you excessively irritable with people? Are you the kind of person who 'brings the atmosphere down'?
It would be easier to help you if I knew you personally. Since I don't, I'm just giving you the advice I should've gotten when I was younger.
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