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Originally Posted by Lallymac I don't see ESP as a gift. It often feels like a double edged sword, gift/curse.
It took me 30 + years to come terms with it and accept that I was normal and it was a normal part of the way I am. For the first 10 years of my life it was semi hidden in my own secret world of childhood and imaginings. You have a lot more license as a child. It became more painful and difficult to hide as a teenager. At a time when you're desperately trying to fit in with peers. In my 20's I fought to deny it by burying myself in trying to be a perfect wife/mother.
By my early 30's it was in my face. It was in my children. My son (at 4) was seeing/talking to his grandparents who had died of cancer when he was a toddler. I began tentatively exploring the other parts of myself and found other people like me. I challenged it and constantly sort evidence to prove it to myself. Five years later I began to embrace it. Doing so cost me my marriage but for the first time in my life I felt whole and ok being me. |
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Originally Posted by Lallymac  I just had a conversation with a friend who's a computor programmer. He's been thrashing around a problem with writing code for a job he's working on. Interestingly he's dyslexic, doesn't read and struggles to write. Anyway he had a breakthrough moment last night and solved the problem. I asked how he did it. This is his reply.
"I've created my own mental search engine. When I get stuck, I imagine myself asking the question to my voice activated search engine, then wait to be shown the answer." I asked why he didn't do it earlier instead of waiting until he was at the end of his wits. He reckons it doesn't seem to work until he's exercised all his other options and then mumbled something about having to explain how he worked it out to his boss without compromising his credibility. |
I find it interesting that many people feel the need to justify their "weirdness" and have reservations about doing so. It seems to be a common theme with those who have psychic abilities.
I copped a lot of flack from those around me when I was younger so maybe I've just learnt to take the hits, but personally I've never felt the need to conform to what people consider to be “normal”. Quite the contrary; to this day I frequently leave an aftermath of "normal" paradigms stretched and broken with my "weirdness", which is amplified by my blatant honesty and directness. I don't go out of my way to say "hey, look at me, this isn't what normal people do", but I don't cover it up or make excuses for it, either.
Sure, some people will refuse to associate with you, and some will even try to ridicule you, but I think it's worth dealing with that to identify those rare individuals who don’t immediately get taken over by socially conditioning and are actually open to the diversity of life.
I’ll admit that there have been times in my life where judgement from others has led me to I question whether or not I should leave my current path and become more “normal”, but I always bounce back with a hardened sense of clarity, knowing that I’ve made the right choice in being myself instead of trying to aspire to some sort of socially accepted image of what is “right” and what we “should” be.
I think this is very much why it will be a while before we see extra-sensory perception being not only accepted, but taught to children -- most of us are too busy trying to be "normal".
Oh, we humans can be a silly bunch.