I used to have a signature where I offered to listen when somebody had a problem to share. I would like to extend this offer to you. I can't say all your problems will be solved and suddenly vanish. But sometimes, it helps to off-load onto somebody else who will not judge you for your actions, but simply listen, offer comfort, and possibly supply a few pointers and ideas about how you can eventually get to a point where all of this becomes a little more manageable.
If you wish to pick me up on my offer, feel free to send me a PM, or an email (email@example.com).