[lightthecandle]

Firstly, I do accept myself. However, it is difficult for me to talk to people and hold a conversation with people, because I don’t feel pretty enough and feel they think I’m not pretty. I feel like I can be really funny and cute if I wasn’t so shy. And people tell me I have a great personality, well the ones that I am already somewhat good friends with already. I guess what I’m asking is how can I stop being soooooo shy? I’m 20 years old now, and I’d really like to break out of this shell that I’ve created. The thing is I have acne, and acne scars which are very very noticeable. I KNOW that if I was prettier that I would have been really popular and had more confidence. I know that’s shallow of me, but since I am not very pretty…how can I talk to people and get to know them and let them know me? The thing is I’m in this science camp in college with 60 other kids, and a lot of the kids have already established good friendships within three days (it’s a 7week program), but not me. Its even more difficult for me to talk to guys (I’m a girl). I guess what I’m asking is because I’m not attractive, how can I have a great personality, not be shy, and be able to hold a decent conversation with people I’m meeting??? How should I carry myself? I feel inadequate when everyone else in the group is good looking and not me. SERIOUSLY THOUGH, I know I have to grow up…I mean I’m friggen 20 years old already, and I still don’t feel confident when talking to people!!!!!! Another thing is how do I start new conversations with people? I mean what else can you ask besides the weather???????????????? Also, can you be well liked if you’re unattractive???


Last question: How do I make the acne go away???? I eat a lot of junk food, and I KNOW that contributes to a lot of the acne…but I just can’t stop!! Someone needs to throw a rock in my eye!!