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Originally Posted by padme  Thank you both for your replies. I appreciate them. It's just difficult for me to And I just know that the minute I start helping myself, the minute I get "better" and become happy - someone enters my life with the sole intention of destroying everything that I worked for. It's happened before and it will probably happen again.
I appreciate the suggestion of smiling, but I really do despise all of my colleagues. I don't want to smile at them. I would much rather glare at them and make faces like they do to me.
If only they had all just left me alone, I would be without any of these issues. |
In your first post, you said friends say you are bi-polar. You should get an expert opinion on your condition and perhaps try medication.
We do teach people how to treat us. First, you must learn to be a friend to yourself, to actually LIKE yourself, before you can be a true friend to another person. It sounds to me like you don't believe you deserve to be happy and you are projecting this onto those around you.
I would urge you to keep looking until you find a counselor or a therapist that you can relate to and who will take you through the old lessons you need to unlearn and the new lessons you need to learn about your relationship with yourself. In my opinion, that is the root of your problem. It's not how you relate to others, but how you relate to yourself.
I wish you the very very best and I hope you will come back and give us an update on your progress
