I am new to this blog, and it seems the Universe has directed me here. I have had a lifetime thus far of psychic experiences. From the time I was a young child I have had dreams of deaths of loved ones as they died. At first my Mother attributed my dream of the first death to me being so close to my Grandfather and just sensing he was ill. I dreamed the exact details of his death and awoke to the phone call letting us know he had died.
These dreams continued of other relatives until my sister died in a horrible auto accident, when the "feeling" of some inpending doom left me in my awake state almost crippled to the point I was unable to answer the call when it came. I managed to all but block these dreams out of my life for a long while after that but they came crashing back in the past 20 years with the details becoming stronger and more defined. I do not know when I started to dream in the Lucid form but it was at least 20 years ago. This has progressed to the point that I will open my eyes and I will see people that have died or spirits perhaps, some known, some not and I freak out usually and scream out in the darkness to get away, leave me alone. My daughter has stopped flying in my room to find out who I am screaming at? I have injured myself physically when these sightings have frightened me by hitting and punching walls and even my nightstand one night. When I have dreams of premonitions such as a dream I had about 9-11, the details are clear but I have no concept of where I am as I see what will happen. I do not see how I can use these powers to help is the reason I fight so hard to block the sightings. If I can't warn or prevent, what can I do?
