Wow Uberinquisitive, you've been through a lot in a very short time.
Certainly the first thing you must do is forgive yourself and know that this was in no way your fault. We all have the freedom to make our own choices. You cannot be responsible for someone else's poor decision (someone much older, at that).
Secondly, what good would it do you? It's up to you to make the most of your life no matter where you're at or what the circumstances. There is nowhere to go but forward and onward. It sounds like you're already taking some steps in that direction.
The best thing you can do is to take care of yourself in every way possible, physically, mentally and emotionally. Work out, get rid of some of that pent up anger and frustration.
Learn from your mistakes (i.e. looking to someone else to make you feel better about yourself). Be the person that you want to be. It's all up to you! |