Uber,
Sorry to hear of your struggle. May you have and be love and compassion in your life. Have you explored writings about forgiveness at all? I expect it shall take time and effort to forgive both yourself and him for both the relationship and the ultimate choice he made.
The other part I would focus on is the boundary issues. Being very clear where you end and another person begins will be invaluable in moving forward to a healthy, supportive relationship with yourself and others.
Take good care,
Alchemiss |