Originally Posted by AdoptedOne
It is almost as though I have lost my soul.
Hi AdoptedOne. Have you focused your attention on this? As in, when thoughts like this appear within your mind, have you focused your awareness on your body? You say you feel nothing, but spacecadet was right to point out that you must feel something akin to dislike. Focus on that feeling, however slight in might be
, in your body. Be with it, totally. Then let it speak to you. I suspect if its given a voice, it'll sound something like resistance. As in, some part of your mind is resisting some part of your experience.