First of all, everything is fine as it is. Your thoughts that something should
be different are creating the resistance in you. This is simply a transition
from one state into another. Just like Chameleon wrote, you should check
out the thread where you can find a lot about awareness/consciousness
and by reading through the thread you will become aware of what happened
in your experience. Below is a link:
Alexplatups: What are the biggies?
make sure to go through the whole thread, because you will see how it goes
through a transition also, and this will help you tremendously in realizing that
whatever you are experiencing is what you should be experiencing, because
it IS what you are experiencing !!!