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Originally Posted by lightthecandle  So I made a blog which I have kept for 4 months. I basically wrote a lot of personal opinions about myself and how I view the world. I’m scared my peers may have seen it (since I’ve posted the link on facebook , myspace, and friendster) actually, I know they did. The problem is I have written a lot about my insecurities about things such as religion, self esteem, likes and dislikes, and beauty. I feel like I never should have never written in my blog and made it public in the first place for all the world to see and judge me. The thing is I wrote that blog when I was going through a pretty depressing time in my life and have since changed and matured ALOT.
What is more important is that I was a very depressed, insecure, and so very shy in highschool. I had no friends. I wouldn’t even look people in the eye and walked the school hallways with my eyes on the floor, never chin up.I’m a pretty girl, its just that I’ve had acne which made me feel REALLY insecure too (though at the time I thought I was hideous). I am going to be a sophomore in college in the fall and although I don’t have any acne, I do have marks (I try to not let them bother me much). I went from getting As and Bs my first years(in highschool) to getting Cs and Ds my last two years. I live in Iowa so I see a majority of my highschool peers at my college. These were the same people who would talk about me constantly and judge me negatively ( such as talking behind my back about me being ugly and stupid). I’ve been doing really well, as in not depressed anymore and have made a total 360 with my life. I am getting good grades (3.5), but the one thing that bothers me, and keeps me from being more productive at school , is all the regrets from highshool, and the people who made fun of me…sometimes I see them at college and I don’t know whether to talk to them or not. I’ve been so depressed over this that I had to leave drop out and take a leave of absence my fall semester because I became really depressed. How do I get over who I was in highschool and get on with my life????????
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You already posted it, so worrying about whether or not you should have won't really do you any good now
Maybe post an update to it explaining some of what you've said here? I also wouldn't be too shy about posting how you feel about things, it might push some people away but others will probably gravitate more toward you for being so open, and maybe even feel more comfortable sharing deeper, more personal things with you.