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lightthecandle · 05-28-2007, 08:27 PM

So I made a blog which I have kept for 4 months. I basically wrote a lot of personal opinions about myself and how I view the world. I’m scared my peers may have seen it (since I’ve posted the link on facebook , myspace, and friendster) actually, I know they did. The problem is I have written a lot about my insecurities about things such as religion, self esteem, likes and dislikes, and beauty. I feel like I never should have never written in my blog and made it public in the first place for all the world to see and judge me. The thing is I wrote that blog when I was going through a pretty depressing time in my life and have since changed and matured ALOT.

What is more important is that I was a very depressed, insecure, and so very shy in highschool. I had no friends. I wouldn’t even look people in the eye and walked the school hallways with my eyes on the floor, never chin up.I’m a pretty girl, its just that I’ve had acne which made me feel REALLY insecure too (though at the time I thought I was hideous). I am going to be a sophomore in college in the fall and although I don’t have any acne, I do have marks (I try to not let them bother me much). I went from getting As and Bs my first years(in highschool) to getting Cs and Ds my last two years. I live in Iowa so I see a majority of my highschool peers at my college. These were the same people who would talk about me constantly and judge me negatively ( such as talking behind my back about me being ugly and stupid). I’ve been doing really well, as in not depressed anymore and have made a total 360 with my life. I am getting good grades (3.5), but the one thing that bothers me, and keeps me from being more productive at school , is all the regrets from highshool, and the people who made fun of me…sometimes I see them at college and I don’t know whether to talk to them or not. I’ve been so depressed over this that I had to leave drop out and take a leave of absence my fall semester because I became really depressed. How do I get over who I was in highschool and get on with my life????????

sorry this is sooooooo long !

05-28-2007, 08:27 PM	#1 (permalink)
lightthecandle Senior Member Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: in my mind Posts: 185	poured my heart out on blog...mistake? So I made a blog which I have kept for 4 months. I basically wrote a lot of personal opinions about myself and how I view the world. I’m scared my peers may have seen it (since I’ve posted the link on facebook , myspace, and friendster) actually, I know they did. The problem is I have written a lot about my insecurities about things such as religion, self esteem, likes and dislikes, and beauty. I feel like I never should have never written in my blog and made it public in the first place for all the world to see and judge me. The thing is I wrote that blog when I was going through a pretty depressing time in my life and have since changed and matured ALOT. What is more important is that I was a very depressed, insecure, and so very shy in highschool. I had no friends. I wouldn’t even look people in the eye and walked the school hallways with my eyes on the floor, never chin up.I’m a pretty girl, its just that I’ve had acne which made me feel REALLY insecure too (though at the time I thought I was hideous). I am going to be a sophomore in college in the fall and although I don’t have any acne, I do have marks (I try to not let them bother me much). I went from getting As and Bs my first years(in highschool) to getting Cs and Ds my last two years. I live in Iowa so I see a majority of my highschool peers at my college. These were the same people who would talk about me constantly and judge me negatively ( such as talking behind my back about me being ugly and stupid). I’ve been doing really well, as in not depressed anymore and have made a total 360 with my life. I am getting good grades (3.5), but the one thing that bothers me, and keeps me from being more productive at school , is all the regrets from highshool, and the people who made fun of me…sometimes I see them at college and I don’t know whether to talk to them or not. I’ve been so depressed over this that I had to leave drop out and take a leave of absence my fall semester because I became really depressed. How do I get over who I was in highschool and get on with my life???????? sorry this is sooooooo long !