[seirwyn]

I have had an ongoing intention for a good long time now, and keep holding it up and stopping and starting due to negative thought habits.I wanted to manifest a relationship and based my visualisations on the actual person. Finally, last autumn after 3 months of better than usual feelings, the actual person moved much closer to me and according to what a psychic told me, we almost got together. But then I began to worry whether it was him or not and the whole thing shuddered to a halt and he closed up again.
However, I got some amazing synchronistic signs that he was the one and when I was on holiday in July and feeling very good, imagining myself with him, I got two texts from psychics saying that my vibration was very positive and so this person would move towards me again in the coming months and that I was on the path that I so longed to be on. I was also told that he would become available at some point but had no timeline for this. I was also told that it felt very right between us and this psychic said she could see us together but the timing wasn’t right just yet.
However, at the same time other psychics were telling me that although he loved me very much, he was unsure of me and that I should move on. (They didn’t know anything about the law of attraction though.)
Abraham Hicks says that barriers like this don’t matter at all if you are a vibrational match. From all the messages I got it seemed that we were, given that I could make him move towards me just by feeling positive.
I got back from holiday in July and spent the next 6 weeks worrying so the small effects from my positive vibes on holiday soon wore off and he became distant again for a few weeks. But then I finally found a way to feel good again and after a few weeks he moved closer to me again. Not as close as last year-he still had barriers up but I got told by the psychics that these barriers would eventually come down.
I was getting small positive results in my life generally and last Sunday I got a very good idea for a business. So I thought that things must soon begin to progress with this man. But on Wednesday I did get a result but it was an awful one! We work together and so we were able to spend a lot of time together but this week he resigned.
Apart from email contact he is out of my life because he is currently in another (unhappy) relationship. He still hasn’t opened up to me and the things the psychics said (that were based directly on my positive vibration remember) haven’t come true yet.
For three weeks every day I imagined us going to the work Christmas party together. But he will be gone by then. Its like the exact opposite of what I wanted has happened even though I know I was doing well vibrationally because of all the other results I got. And he had begun to warm to me again.
So either he is not the one, which makes me incredibly confused given all the above signs and messages, or this is just a harsh but necessary step in us eventually getting together, even though I cant see it. He was planning to leave all along the whole time I knew him and it was his destiny, yet I still got all those messages about us getting together. I don’t think I got my act together too late because if you are meant to be nothing can stop it from happening. You can always make a chance come around again. It does feel like it was all meant to happen and the timing of it was in response to my energy, but its not what I was expecting.
I know it means that there could be someone better but that scenario doesn’t fit with all the messages I got. Or can someone stop being a vibrational match? It seemed quite clear from that one message about my vibrations putting me on the path to a relationship with him (only back in July) that he is a match.
Nothing is really making sense at the moment.