Originally Posted by uberinquisitive
For me, the abandonment, the guilt...and low self-esteem were just crushing issues.
Yeah, I think it's abandonment, the mind games (I just can't figure out what was true and what wasn't) and low self esteem because he was probably with other girls (from what I hear he even told one he loves her). And I still wanted to be with him. That makes me really angry at myself. What I am trying to do is realize his bad behavior does not reflect on my worth. He made those choices. Nothing I did gave him excuse and I couldn't prevent or stop it.
I look forward to being with someone else, but he's the only person I've ever dated/been with. It's hard to imagine being with anyone else right now...even just a date. My heart is still tied up in what we had (what little it may have been).