Uber...I am so sorry to hear your story! I don't even know what to say (I am sure there is nothing suitable). I was probably abused verbally or emotionally if anything. Even though he previously physically abused one of his girlfriends, I was never worried about that. He never came close. I believe my ex is a narcissist as well. I am not even sure he would realize what he did hurt me. He doesn't seem to even be aware of how things really are. I almost don't even want to be angry with him because the truth is his life is going to be harder than mine as long as he behaves this way.
I am glad to hear you are recovering well from this. I wish you all the best in your life to come. You sound like you will do extremely well. Thank you for sharing your story. If you can rise up from this situation for the better, I am sure I will be fine. It really puts things in perspective. I have nothing to feel so sad about...
Update
Last night I went with my cousin to the new Vegetarian restaurant in our city. It was great. Then we watched an episode of the Sopranos. Tony was cheating on his wife and I got a really sick feeling in my stomach. Any time I see or hear about infidelity (even fictional) I get this way. I am trying not to dwell on the details of him being with other girls. It's the hardest part. He doesn't know about the information I have. He hasn't called since Tuesday. Even though some stupid part of me wanted to hear his voice last night despite the nausea I was feeling, I didn't call. I had more dreams about him last night though..is it just because I am thinking about him so much? Can I get my subconscious to stop?
Today I bought myself a laptop. I am really excited about it. It's beautiful.
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