[Aikay]

This girl was in my territory when I picked interest with having to do with her. I did the things I feel a responsible man would do if he finds a woman he really wants; I didn’t do things as if I’m so much in love while I was not but it was a game of trying to make a way for better understanding between two of us. Everyone knows what it looks like to ladies when a man starts to show interest. When things were almost set, they packed to another town, or should I say another state although the town was still very close to my base. We were able to have a talk only on the phone in the sense that she was really busy with her finals in college, till one day I promised calling her and she needed a talk with me but I didn’t, was not intentional; had many things on hand on that particular day… After that she disabled her line against my calls. Ten months were over I couldn’t have a word with her. January was fortunate dealing with her, her line went through; she didn’t pick up and I left no message, no machine picked up. Later on same day she called having seen the missed calls and was asking “WHO IS THIS?”… It was hard to explain coz that was my cell number, which I’m sure she had when things were making progress.

It took me time to reconcile; having route to some extent and continue with having just words with her. She has visited twice after the broken days, surprisingly; just to spend few minutes or an hour to tell me she is leaving. These days she did, I hadn’t any time to have deep words with her – I was busy. She was like “she has my dignity to protect” each time I stand well on having chances, and I gave her the time to. So, to fool around for her face was my shape. Continued to run around, to have things fixed better than ever but her songs kept things unmoving. I DON’T HAVE A GUY AND NOT READY TO HAVE ANY FOR NOW, she said. Things have become worst, situation is tracing me to be a means of her winter days; she disabled her line for some days against my call after her last visit without seeing me – was not in. When it was open I called her and “WHO IS THIS?” was her words. It was a difficult moment to handle but I did, even though the line went off when she told me “MAYBE I’VE DELETED YOU NUMBER”, don’t know if really she did cut the line. I’m really choked with matters and think I should leave her alone since she is not the only girl existing to be good.

But, I just do very well having this girl within and her kind is what I really want from a woman except this that has bundles of frustration.

How do you think I should handle this and have her?
Or should I off my touch light totally?

Aikay