Yes, Anagogy, I know, I tried it many times. Then he started doing it stronger and stronger. The more I tried, the more intensive his influence was. I am a stubborn person, always try to win, but what can I do if he , for. ex., starts pushing me (not only talking), or starts hitting me on my arm, or my leg? Or, like right now, he starts "using" my hand as if it were he who is typing. He starts reminding me immediately that he is here when a slightest thought about resistance comes into my head. I can try to deceive myself that he is nothing else like a dream residue or smth like that, but if he uses visual , or audial, or tactile techniques changing their order, and starts not simply talking but shouting into my ears, I 'll be just deceiving myself - not more than that. Or he starts abusing me sexually - doesn't matter where I am and what I am doing at the moment - I feel everything as if it were in a real life. He creates the illusion of his phisical presence, - and what can I do?! - How to escape, where to run?
Being in Russia I could afford asking for help from people who have psychic abilities, but nothing helped. Maybe those people were not strong enough? But nothing has changed - absolutely.If I could have noticed at least some very little change for the better I would certainly use this opportunity and kept on going to those people. But the dissapointment was very big. Nothing has changed. He was talking with the same intensity, in the same manner of his, nothing changed when those people were trying to help - even at the very moment when they were taking their effforts and I was taking my efforts.
It is great that you have explained me the difference in meaning between the words. I should have checked it myself.
Thank you for your kind and detailed advice, for your concern and you wish to help me. You have already helped me to feel better a lot by sending me your message, sharing your kindness and your concern, your sincere interest and your attitude to my problem. I 'll try to follow your advice as much as possibe.
Last edited by Irisha; 10-18-2010 at 10:20 PM.