Hello, Irisha. You are in good company at this forum.
I find it alarming anyone is able to breach the telepathy stream with less than good intent: I was taught by guide spirits that to participate on this grid, one must be extremely honest and have intentions of good for all. Your report of manipulation indicates to me something I have suspected for a while. I suggest all our spiritual 'elders' bring this up in meditations, prayers and communications...I certainly will.
As with cancer, your controller has managed to place a "transmitter cell" within your psyche, somewhere, somehow. Locating such transmitter cells...as in the cancer transmitter cell...takes much courage and is done with light transmission. It's crucial you get in trusting contact with your guide spirits and have them help you locate the transmitter. It is most likely placed (as a short sequence of thoughts) in one of your common thought processes. Once located, focusing on its presence and bring it to your guide's attention will help. But this is a concern for all of us, and it's like a spiritual virus. I keep you in my prayers.