I don't post very often as i am still very much learning about these things but I feel I may have something to contribute here.
This is my experience of suicide.
I first thought of suicide at a very young age, probably seriously about 14-15 years old.
I suffered with depression for many years and had very low points in my life where suicide was often on my mind but here I am still living my life and grateful for everyday.
I have experienced a few of my past lives and in one I was a young girl with the same parents I have in this life, I have shared many lives with my parents as we must have many lessons to learn from each other and much Karma to clear. My father abandoned us in that life and I never got over it so I commited suicide. I have pretty much always had a strong fear of abandonment and my Father in this life has a very troubled mind and we have not had contact for many years. I have forgiven him in this life and for past lives and forgiven myself too.
I am trying to put this together in my own mind still so forgive me if it doesn't make complete sense.
As souls we all (or most) have karma to clear and lessons that need to be learnt in order to reach enlightenment. When we chose suicide I wonder if its cause we can no longer learn in that physical body and need to go else where, born into another part of our soul family that may help us with other lessons. It makes me wonder if our higher selves, or subconcious mind knows our contract and knows when its time for us to move on, maybe we have agreed on a higher plane that our loved ones we leave behind have lessons to learn about grief, to make them stronger and clear Karma.
I would like to believe that those that feel desparate enough to take thier own life are not eternally damned but move on to another time and place to learn their lessons and clear thier Karma.
I really do hope that this makes sense as its the very first time I have attempted to write down my thoughts on this.
Many blessings
Elle
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