[Wade]

Originally Posted by Wade

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Bought a motorbike today even though the money could have been used for more urgent things with my family.
Im going on a hunting trip with my father and 6 other BUTCH hunters, I hate hunting,but i like quading....but if i take my quad its expected that you strap a gun to it...solution is to buy a bike....no gun....no hunting....but still get to enjoy the trip.
Someone earlier in this post wrote about keeping my financials in order....its not like that....i paid cash for the bike and its the first brand new purchase i have ever made and I'm 35. Its not like my family is starving, it's just that the money could have been better served

Hate sharing my feelings and just lock up when my wife asks me why I'm mad
I feel that it makes me weak.....wimpy

Feel that I am always right
I feel that i have good judgment....on issues that i know.....if im not sure about something i keep my mouth shut or say i dont know

Hold my anger inside and then explode
i avoid confrontation, i dont want to hurt the other persons feelings

Have major troubles being blunt
same as above

If I don't get my way, I'm passed
im stubborn....maybe i feel that im right and it should be my way...its ironic that i dont consider the other persons feelings to much (trying to get my way) but yet i dont want to hurt their feelings by expressing my feelings when im angry

Feel bad if I say "no" ..... Ex. If an employee asks for a raise
maybe im afraid of their response or reaction. Its hard for me to say "no"....and yet at times i know that I'm being taken advantage of but I'm too much of a ***** to stand up and say "NO"....."Can I get my cheque on Friday?" Even though payday is on monday, I say......"Sure".....I want to be liked by all (i know this is not possible)

Never ask for help....so that I don't feel committed to helping others I need to expand on this....I try to do things on my own, build a deck, buid a fence, build a patio, etc. I never ask for help because I feel that people in general have better things to do with their weekend. But if you ask me to help you build a deck.....I will cancel my weekend trip to help you....even though I don't like it. Now if I don't ask you to help me, you won't ask me to help you....messed up.....I know. Now if you helped me with somehing and then you asked me to help you and i said "no" i would feel terrible.....my god I can't believe i'm putting this out here on this forum....it's scarythat somone I know might see it.

Thank you INDIANA for getting me started...this is what i needed....I use my brain everyday to answer a lot of weak questions thrown at me....but I have never used it in the PD area, something as simple as "So Why" has started to turn the knob on the door...it's not open yet...but it will.