You don't sound like a lightworker to me. Light workers DO for other people and what you posted here sounds pretty selfish. Your last comment about not asking for help so you don't have to do for others was the most selfish thing I think I read in this whole post.
But who says you have to label yourself as either one? Maybe you're neither...you don't HAVE to be a DW or LW.
What exactly do you want someone to motivate you to do? Work through your emotional issues?